You're my favourite sin...

"So I salute you with both hands

It's unbearable pain, but time well spent

[...] You take all my problems, filter them up, then throw them all away

With the pleasure comes the pain that only you could bring...

You've been given all I have

When you come around, I seem to give in

In a fight I'll never win, cause all the while you're my favorite sin"

(Within Reason - My Favorite Sin)

The awkward moment when you hear a love song and all you can think of is: "that's exactly what MMA is to me!" 

So, after a month at Randori, training with the same Jits and MMA coach, who knows pretty well, what he's doing, I came to a decision. I'm almost 30 now. My prime time for competing is almost over, so when I came to Berlin, I already knew that it was either all in now or having a fun hobby on the side for the rest of my life. 

I'm not an 'a little bit'-kind of person. I'm either all in, or I'm out. Obsessed or not interested.

So, I had a talk with my trainer. Real talk. I told him, I wanted to go all the way. That I trusted him enough to get me where I need to be. And he said, he'd be there to do everything he can to do what it takes for me. He'd give me conditioning instructions and revise a nutrition plan. And while he's talking a lot and one could think that it's all just talk, he came through right away. Yesterday, I had my first conditioning circuit with our competitors. Our trainer invited some other people, too, to check out our basic fitness levels and well, torture us a little (he's doing the same training with us, so don't get me wrong, he's walking the talk). We did five rounds of pull-ups, push-ups, lunges, burpees and abs. It wasn't that bad then, but today, I'm SORE. On the other hand, he also told me that my fitness was solid, a good base to build on (because there's always room for improvement). So yeah, now it's all about nutrition, conditioning and training as regularly and often as possible. The life of an athlete. Fat me seven years ago would have never thought that I'd be enjoying this so much. Life is a funny thing, it never turns out the way you thought it would, and that's great.